Jeff I hope I did not take your words the wrong way but it was my gut feeling. I've been in the big black hole in the past. Depression is what I am on about. Talk to us either on here in or in private. Even on an mb, when people realise you are being serious, all sorts of support and advice can help. Privately, not a problem either but talking about it does help. I hope this does not offend you but some of us do actually care about people on here.
I found the John Kirwin commercials helpful too.