Hope. You realise that is a balanced view, not rabidly positive?
There is no shame in having hoped for the best and it didn't arrive. JD keeps saying how wrong I've been, and there's no shame in that, either.
Hang in there D. I still enjoy all your posts (as I do everybody's, regardless of whether I agree).
I thought JD telling you off last night said more about him than you tbh.